okay

wen im honest with myself

its

i love jordan

i love jordan for jordan and

i lovejordan for me and

jordans actually 90% nice

hes a lot percent jumbled up inside

and

that kindof makes it harder

i lovehim so much

its not going to be okay though

i dont know how i will ever be okay

ill never be okay

i love him and ill neverever ever love anyone else ever

its obvious

everyone knows this

idonteven want anyoneto say anything......no one has anything to say anyways. I want to die.

i hope i dont die

i just dont want to go home i dont want to be here i dont want to be with my mom or kait or anyone i want to be jordans girlfriend forever and i want it to be that way but its going to be too hard

how do i live

idont