i am sitting in my rectangular workspot near the fridge

and really not doing anything for the past two hours

its nine oclock and after this iam going to draw pinecones because i got a deficiency today

everyone gets those though!

new living arangements need to be made soon

im really really anxious about it

because i think thuy and frank are living in a house

and kaitlyn and dot and gianna are moving into a house

both thing i am moving with them

there is an enormous list of good things and better things and bad things and its makingme crazy. i had a wierd episode last night

i dont feelthe same

about gurl

like i usedto

this is how i know jordan is different

i might come home this weekend since emilys not comingup!

thuy is goingclubbing and then to ac and im jeal

sooo ill go home

my dads moving and itsthe last chanceill have tobe there

man,

mediating myselfl

well

i likebeinghere so much

good

ifeelreal bad i didntmake enoughtime for everybodie :(

but

i likedthings that happened

i thinki made frend

and

i am closer withemily now! i feel SOmuch like frends with her

and i think jordan is the same

we are better friends

that is extremely good and hurt feeling

i neverever ever lovesomeonesomuch

we are such good combo

no one in world understands .___.

today i found a bag of my favorite things i meant to pack withme but forgot

i love favorite things

brevily

hapflict

man,

whaadooo i do. best timeof life makeyou forget anythingelse good ever happen and robs bestpossibilities from newdays for awhile.

i think you are tooooo cooooool. totaallly wonderful

why she preferme

i just saw a mouse

idont want to lookat anyone for awhile

im moreready to isolate myselfcompletely than ive ever been

im turnedoff completely by peoplei couldnt unwrap my feelings from

loland i feel kindabad for it

it doesnt matter i dont want things to go back to how they were

i read inbetween between the lines and i think that is a mistake

puke