skip town
gawk atta shootin' star
eat mcdoubles
swimm 'um off
hedhome roll yer windowdown
kiss yor own bed and start digginsum holes cus ashooting star movedin ur front yard and killed all yor outside cats

i am hungry

i am in pequea tonite and its funny because last summer me and emily and jordan went to pequea and a guy wearing toobe socks and feathers in his hat and bright orange vest was tryingto direct traffic or sumthing with a big stick and made us take wrong turn and

noooowww he lives down the street from me!

hahaha


i would really like to live different than i amcommited to living .___. i do not want to be the internet responsible for bills if it means paying with anything other than pysical money. i hate checks and creditcards they are stressful and scary. i would rather have no internet and just daylight

siiighh
im not meant for this
i would be a good wildlife creature

i am moving a bunch of things to phillytoday in house and i have two bicycles because a man gave me one for free!
um, umumum. kaitlyn tells me about all of her stories and new neighbors. they have red satin sheets and sexrooms and pcpdrugs and they grow corn in their backyard.

ASFOR ME. i have a fire pit in my back yard and a boston terrier pupgirl and kittens and my rent is 290 because i live in the smallest room. Kevin, jennie, michelle and Kaitlyn are my housemates. yay. I stayed there a few nights for class and kevin likes to make clay roses with me while i make 3dhomework. He brings so many friends they are nice. Neighborhoodis very do the right thing and its scary sometimes buuuut not in the morning and hopefully kaitlyn and me will always walk together at night but she said a girl was murdered and raped on 4th and girard so it instilled fear in me a lot .___. um,

my mom is back from cvs !

i am ready to forget philadelphia exists forawhlie but i have to move there soon

todayi cud barely sit thru drawing

and thenicame homeand slept and a spookydream anda man chainsawed my legs open and it was okay and i woke up and ifelt fine and i went to art history and did a bad homework assignment and i thought more pros for suicide which is wierd and then i wondered if look the same when im thinking those thots compared to normal ones because that wouldmean i look angryand wierd all the time. I talkedreally loud in thecomputer lab and on theway home i walked directlyinto a car almost andthen talkedyelled at myself and raninto a sumpeple who just waitedto crossthe street

thewholetime i didnt havemy fone or anything i just had a pen so i wud be fuckedif the door wasnt'broken/open but

im reallyreally embarrassed/ashamed of myself today

i thinkthats because i shud be

and i dont want to go to writing

andidont want to really see anybody ever again

and iam so on edge

iwant good feelingsback so bad

slimecushions my thots and i missed u

u_________u

well iam livin with kait and dot and gianna next year

shud be gooooood

really sux tho that i will be w/o thuy

shes thebest

im so sad about that

i am sleuthing on my writing teacher hard

i am sitting in my rectangular workspot near the fridge

and really not doing anything for the past two hours

its nine oclock and after this iam going to draw pinecones because i got a deficiency today

everyone gets those though!

new living arangements need to be made soon

im really really anxious about it

because i think thuy and frank are living in a house

and kaitlyn and dot and gianna are moving into a house

both thing i am moving with them

there is an enormous list of good things and better things and bad things and its makingme crazy. i had a wierd episode last night

i dont feelthe same

about gurl

like i usedto

this is how i know jordan is different

i might come home this weekend since emilys not comingup!

thuy is goingclubbing and then to ac and im jeal

sooo ill go home

my dads moving and itsthe last chanceill have tobe there

man,

mediating myselfl

well

i likebeinghere so much

good

ifeelreal bad i didntmake enoughtime for everybodie :(

but

i likedthings that happened

i thinki made frend

and

i am closer withemily now! i feel SOmuch like frends with her

and i think jordan is the same

we are better friends

that is extremely good and hurt feeling

i neverever ever lovesomeonesomuch

we are such good combo

no one in world understands .___.

today i found a bag of my favorite things i meant to pack withme but forgot

i love favorite things

brevily

hapflict

man,

whaadooo i do. best timeof life makeyou forget anythingelse good ever happen and robs bestpossibilities from newdays for awhile.

i think you are tooooo cooooool. totaallly wonderful

why she preferme

i just saw a mouse

idont want to lookat anyone for awhile

im moreready to isolate myselfcompletely than ive ever been

im turnedoff completely by peoplei couldnt unwrap my feelings from

loland i feel kindabad for it

it doesnt matter i dont want things to go back to how they were

i read inbetween between the lines and i think that is a mistake

puke

today i miss ashley and being friends :(

YAWNBARF

everything is fine

but i dontwant to feel this anymore

im soupset

wen you dontfix things that are fixableiwant to holdyou in the face and callyou a big idiot

iwould give anything for the problemsyouhave

if people end upwithpeople who arent meant to be all the time

then why cant it happen to me too

i getso upset

and angry

if i not withyou i feel like icant move

and wen imwithyou you are the onlything im okaywith thinkingof

how do i getanywhere

i loveyou

you mademeand it was reallyfucking annoying

why cant things go upfromthere

OH MY GOD

wWEELL.

ihate myself in selfloathyjordan love deathmindtraps

siiigh. this blog is AWFUL

i dont have the chanels to get beyonce grrrr