okaay. tonight im going home

i didnt tell my mom

im just coming to see emily hess because she lives in northcarolina

i luv her

every time i was at emilies thouuugh

i would be so happyto be with her

but also sooo happy that i could go be with jordan later

so this time its diffferent

if i say anything to my mom about being home she will have really hurt feelings

.____. i hate this whole stupid situation

i hateit

i reallydont want to come home at all

iwas going home with kait and ben

but emilyshome

oh well oh well oh well

its just being home

without being with jordan

seems like a big wierd horriblething .__.

i wish i cud go home and see my mom and be with jordan a little and be comfortable with the wholething

idontwanttosee jordan

like i am

ishouldjust

stop thinking about this!

its oooonly a couplea days