its really weird

hard

to give up on something that seemed to important and forever .___.

jordan wrote me luv notes everyday

that said rehrehrehrehreh i like you its not stupid crush we have so much in commonrehrehrehhrehrehharthartharthart

its justwierdhe loved me so much

inallthe ways

and at our sleepovers he wanted kissme sobad all the time .____.

and i was so mean i always said no

we did everythingtogether

first time we held hands it was goingto get pizza and i heldhis hand the whole way there but

i didnt want anyone to see

grr i wish i always let everyone knowhe was my boyfrend

i did a lot ofthings wrong i am really madat myself sometimes butiwas only in 8th grade v___v

if we could startover and be couple now

ifhe said helove me in everyway you love your lovr then i wouldnt care about whohe was with ever ever ever or ifhewas doing heroin or anything withwhoooever

i want that so much i wanna startover

:[ justwen i got outof all my stupid ruts

and i always looked back on past and wished for then

.___. myadvice to everyone isssss try not to do that because then you will end up withoutperson you love faster than you know it

i know thats really hard to do

not to be nostalgic

jordan was bestthing that i ever found

i cant shake

the notion that it will

fix itself ._.

but how can i compete withthis

or standbyhim

._____.

somehow

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