also you for the first time

myboyfriend jordan is not nice at all

iwud like him to be a goodbboyfriend because

i lovehim and i dont rilly want a new one

sadfeelings make it hard to do welll i am behind in school and that makesme afraid

everyone else is so focused and talented and ready and i canonly hope i am one of those thing.___.

i think that college is for people with lotsof ambitionsand

i dontknow if i havethoose

sometimes i do they justarnt there all the time

especialy on days like todaywhen youwont talk tome

i am sleepy but ishud do homework .__. i am too upset to do homework

i shut my door and people say that they like me

and whenitsopen and they come in it doesnt seem so

idontknow if i evenlike them as much as i thought

but ifyoudont like me that iswhy i so upset last night

i havesomething irillywud like to tellyou and you arenowhere to find :[

itmakeme sad that you probably do not care

ifyousayyou do i dont believeyou

and i dont loveyou verymuch but you seem to care so

wut is holdingme back when youarent .___.i wish you were holdingme back

i am upset

you love me lessthan i hopedyou would

if i go away

reallygoaway

then maybe youwill be upset tooooo

i kindof want that

you never wantedme to be upset though

sometimes iam so sure who is the more bad person and

sometimes, like now iam not.

when im not sure, like now, and peoplethat like stars say they miss them, its not fair because none of the ones you want to see are brightenough here. ifthere were stars you would like me more, it would give me a chance

ithink wanting chanceis what may have caused youto not answer yor fone

and everytime you do, after you dont im mad and hurt but then i loveyou more and i hope that isnt why we are stilltogether .__.

you aresoooo mixed up

you you you you you you you